Going to the Farm!

We just got back from our annual trip to Alabama to see Terry's Cousins! It was awesome! They live in the middle of nowhere on farm land in the Southeast corner of Alabama. We all love going there since we can get away from just about everything, meaning the computer, the TV, the internet and all that stuff! The kids love seeing all the animals and getting to play with all their cousins, which they only get to see during this trip! Terry and I love catching up with family and just escaping our reality of city life for awhile. Although, I have to say that I did miss my email and the Drudge Report. All in all, the visit was quite a success and Terry enjoyed his first time going with us! A big shout out and Thank You to all the Murphy family in AL....We love you guys!

Trip to Atlanta

We spent the weekend in Atlanta and it was awesome! We were on our way to Alabama and we decided to break up the trip and make a stop in Atlanta. We are so glad that we did! The kids loved Downtown and the Olympic Centennial Park. There is so much to see there that we are going to have to go back. We spent a lot of time just looking around and of course had to stop and eat and have ice cream! It ended up being a great Father's Day Treat for all of us!

Summer is Here!!

We are really enjoying school being out and just having fun all day and every day. We recently joined a pool and the kids have had so much fun going and playing in the water. Haven is really getting good at swimming across the pool and Lauren is getting there. Camden and Ashton are just enjoying the kiddie waterpark with the slides and fountains. I am just trying to soak it all it :o)

Boundaries

I am reading this book called "Boundaries" and it has brought a lot things to mind, like my entire life, as in without any boundaries. Not sure how I grew up without ever learning this, but I did. I am reading this book with shock on my face most of the time. It is explaining a lot of how my unhealthy relationships have developed that way because of my lack of boundaries. I let people manipulate me. Oh, for sure, if you met me in person you would never think that this is true. However, I am here to tell you that it is. I have a hard time saying No, or I don't think that is Right, or whatever you want to fill in that blank with. I somehow equate LOVE with saying YES. and I equate being UNLOVED or NOT LOVING with saying NO. Yes, I know that this sounds screwed up, but this is how I have lived the first 32 years of my life. All my childhood wounds (and teenage years wounds) have conditioned me to think this way. I am coming to terms with the fact that this single belief that I hold to has impacted me in so many ways........and in ways that I still have yet to see. That is scary! How do I change that about me? How do I, after 32 years of living this way, all the sudden just CHANGE? And that leads me to think....What was the Lord doing with me all these years. I know that He saw me while all this wounding was happening. I know that He was with me during all the pain. I know that He carried me when I could no longer put one foot in front of the other. I know all this, BUT why did He let it ever get that far?

Soccer Camp

Haven is in soccer camp this week and she is having so much fun! Two of her friends, Ragan and Savannah, went to camp with her. She is not sure if Soccer is the one sport that she wants to play in the fall, but she really liked the camp....and her camp coach, Coach Heidi!

Who am I?

As I walk through this journey of healing, I am starting to realize that this is more of a journey to find out who I am. Who did the Lord truly desire for me to be.....you know in the beginning, before all the crap, all the pain, all the hurt, and the baggage. I have seen a glimpse of the real me and not who others expect for me to be or act. It is both exciting and scary to realize this at the age of 32. Not sure what I am going to do with that, but I am on this journey for the long haul and God and me, we are going to figure this thing out!

Dinner Party

I love throwing parties! I love it when one of my friends is having a baby or some other major life event and I get the chance to throw a party. I love figureing out the menu and working on the guest list and makeing the invitation. I love it all! Thank you to all my friends that let me shower them with parties! I love it!

Healing

I am ready Lord!
Ready to do what you have asked me to do. Ready to heal from all the past hurts and pain. Ready to walk in the freedom that you have designed for me to walk in. Ready to walk in the perfect law that gives freedom (james 1).I know that you have waited for me here and you are ready to take all this burden, all this pain, all this regret and all this sin. You are ready to take it and make it as far from me as the east is from the west. I know that you can do it and now I am saying:
I am ready!

Assault on the Family

Over the past year, I have known seven families that have been torn apart. They have been destroyed either through adultery or just plain selfishness. I can not help but think about my own family when forced to deal with these situations in different ways. How can we protect our families from this world, our culture, and from evil itself? In the modern Christian culture of current day churches, women are given the "inspired" checklist to live their life by in order to prevent their husbands from being tempted to stray......it is somehow our jobs as wives to check off the list in order to protect our husbands from their sin. How is this possible? better yet how is this biblical? If we have sex with our husbands every other day, cook him a nice dinner, keep the house clean and straight and provide him with 2.5 children then the equation should equal 1 happy marriage...... If the Christian culture in our churches has it right then why is the divorce rate higher in the church than it is outside of it? We are the ones that have all the books and the conferences and all the right things to say and to do, but we can not keep our families together...

Pain

There is always pain with sin and it's consequences. I am just curious....when does that pain stop? Is there ever a time that the Lord takes it away? If not, then why? As I continue to experience pain from past sins....I have ask when will it not hurt? When will the healing be complete?