Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Going to the Farm!




We just got back from our annual trip to Alabama to see Terry's Cousins! It was awesome! They live in the middle of nowhere on farm land in the Southeast corner of Alabama. We all love going there since we can get away from just about everything, meaning the computer, the TV, the internet and all that stuff! The kids love seeing all the animals and getting to play with all their cousins, which they only get to see during this trip! Terry and I love catching up with family and just escaping our reality of city life for awhile. Although, I have to say that I did miss my email and the Drudge Report. All in all, the visit was quite a success and Terry enjoyed his first time going with us! A big shout out and Thank You to all the Murphy family in AL....We love you guys!

Trip to Atlanta


We spent the weekend in Atlanta and it was awesome! We were on our way to Alabama and we decided to break up the trip and make a stop in Atlanta. We are so glad that we did! The kids loved Downtown and the Olympic Centennial Park. There is so much to see there that we are going to have to go back. We spent a lot of time just looking around and of course had to stop and eat and have ice cream! It ended up being a great Father's Day Treat for all of us!

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Summer is Here!!





We are really enjoying school being out and just having fun all day and every day. We recently joined a pool and the kids have had so much fun going and playing in the water. Haven is really getting good at swimming across the pool and Lauren is getting there. Camden and Ashton are just enjoying the kiddie waterpark with the slides and fountains. I am just trying to soak it all it :o)

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Boundaries

I am reading this book called "Boundaries" and it has brought a lot things to mind, like my entire life, as in without any boundaries. Not sure how I grew up without ever learning this, but I did. I am reading this book with shock on my face most of the time. It is explaining a lot of how my unhealthy relationships have developed that way because of my lack of boundaries. I let people manipulate me. Oh, for sure, if you met me in person you would never think that this is true. However, I am here to tell you that it is. I have a hard time saying No, or I don't think that is Right, or whatever you want to fill in that blank with. I somehow equate LOVE with saying YES. and I equate being UNLOVED or NOT LOVING with saying NO. Yes, I know that this sounds screwed up, but this is how I have lived the first 32 years of my life. All my childhood wounds (and teenage years wounds) have conditioned me to think this way. I am coming to terms with the fact that this single belief that I hold to has impacted me in so many ways........and in ways that I still have yet to see. That is scary! How do I change that about me? How do I, after 32 years of living this way, all the sudden just CHANGE? And that leads me to think....What was the Lord doing with me all these years. I know that He saw me while all this wounding was happening. I know that He was with me during all the pain. I know that He carried me when I could no longer put one foot in front of the other. I know all this, BUT why did He let it ever get that far?

Soccer Camp



Haven is in soccer camp this week and she is having so much fun! Two of her friends, Ragan and Savannah, went to camp with her. She is not sure if Soccer is the one sport that she wants to play in the fall, but she really liked the camp....and her camp coach, Coach Heidi!

Who am I?

As I walk through this journey of healing, I am starting to realize that this is more of a journey to find out who I am. Who did the Lord truly desire for me to be.....you know in the beginning, before all the crap, all the pain, all the hurt, and the baggage. I have seen a glimpse of the real me and not who others expect for me to be or act. It is both exciting and scary to realize this at the age of 32. Not sure what I am going to do with that, but I am on this journey for the long haul and God and me, we are going to figure this thing out!